Right, this is the reason why I felt fuckedup for so long, I was wondering all the time how my mood was, how I felt, what were good things to do in my life and what the consequences were from stuff I was doing.
That was just a reaction on the shite I've been trough all those months, I didnt felt like myself. ( I dont have the words to express this whole bunch of feelings in English, sorry for that. )
and right now, day by day, things are getting better finally
But yeah now it has turned out in some art explosion, I really love this piece, as it is pretty freestyle and experimental for my taste.